Don't think everyday is a happy day.

The only thing I feel excited now is the plan to learn snowboarding with Tina during this weekend. The rest half of this year is okay and not too much fun. What did I intend to gain from this year? I totally forgot and I have no energy to think about it. I lost my ambition suddenly. Isn't it interesting? People change their behavior or attitude so quickly when they are facing difficulty. Someone says the key point of success is how to overcome the turning point. But, no one can tell you how to overcome. When you hear too many generalized concepts, you will start feeling those are useless and non-sense.

Recently, the negative emotion from the aimless research (or you can say it's not shaped up yet) almost occupied my mind. I know it's unhealthy but I just cannot help let it be this way. Hope everything will go well after exploring the beauty of wild environment. God might give me a clue to figure out. God, where are you?

It's pretty ironic that I wanna do some research about stress monitoring/regulation. I am not even able to find out the stressor in my life. Apparently, if I am unable to find out, I won't be able to conquer it.

The more flexibility means the more responsibility and ability you should have. You can say I am lucky since the boss gives me 100% flexibility. However, I started feeling ...vague? and confused? To be honest, I know I didn't do enough but I have no idea how to do it. Maybe, I need to tell them I am super junior researcher and give my more hints not hunch anymore.

All sentences above are not logical and they are just a vent for me to release my shit emotion. Don't take them too seriously if someone I love is reading them.