more pressure more ....still pressure

Just finished the second round of practice talk with my manager. 2 HOUR!!! There will be one more go-through before tomorrow's official talk at center.

2 hour is not big deal. The more important is that I found out they care about my talk because 1) I did not do well 2) they want to get more money from this project. Hence, I cannot screw up tomorrow though I did shit in the previous two practice talks. ;-(

However, I learned a lot though I still hope I were super genius and do everything perfectly without any stressful experience. To be honest, you will feel depreciated when you sense others' tricky expression. 

I really want to know is there a relationship between how you feel frustrated and how you will feel satisfied later? If the association is zero, why should we undergo this tough process. Not really fun though, especially in English environment. In English environment, I kind of lost my humor, temper, and small pieces of brain power.

.....tired and going to gym.